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Dec 13th, at 12:28pm 07 ]
[ mood | giddy ]

It's mine & Rj's six month anniversary today! Of course, it would be lovely if we could spend it together but we make it just as good having it apart.
But in 60 days I will be picking him up from Sydney international airport and will be spending a lovely month with him :)
To top it off, I also have a job interview with STA Travel.. wish me luck! If i get it, i get cheaper airfares and holidays to see my baby! (And awesome salary)
I love you baby xoxo

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life update! [Tuesday
Dec 11th, at 12:52am 07 ]
[ mood | loved ]

Wow.. a lot has changed since my last entry..
As you can see it is now December and I haven't written in here since April!
Duke & I broke up a few days after my last entry.. pretty messy break up but of course I had my lovely friends to support me with one friend in particular.
One of my very dear friends who I met online in early 2005 also became single the same week that I did and it was really nice to be able to support each other the way we did. We started talking more often again and our friendship was great.
Sometime during March I was on the phone to my lovely friend while he and his friend Johnny were discussing where they should go for their summer holiday. I of course, mentioned that they should come visit me in Australia.. and low & behold, they said yes!
On the 13th June '07 i came face to face with my wonderful friend and instantly we both saw that there was something more. Our first kiss happened that very afternoon while we were laughing and talking as normal alone in their hotel room. All i remember was Rj delicately holding my face as he moved himself closer to me and honestly giving me the most passionate experience of my life.
You know how in Never Been Kissed Drew Barrymore's character explains how a special first kiss is such an important moment, where everything goes hazy and you realise that that person is the person you're supposed to be kissing for the rest of your life?
That's the only way I can describe it.. and believe me, nothing ever has or will compare to that.
After 11 fantastic days spent together my new love unfortunately had to return home to the US. The 23rd June was an awful day and both of us cried and cried not really certain when we'd see each other again.
Our 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th & 5th month anniversaries passed, my 20th birthday came and went and just as I thought I wouldn't see my boyfriend until February '08 I received an email from his best friends asking if I would consider being his 21st birthday present.
For 21 days I didn't tell my boyfriend the truth - he didn't know a thing about me coming to surprise him or even that i had a passport!
But on 19th November '07, he came home from work to find me sitting at his kitchen table along with various friends and family. My poor babe, I scared the hell out of him!
We spent another 11 days together, and leaving on 29th November was the hardest. Saying goodbye after sharing everything with someone who you love completely is really hard.
In a few days it will be our 6 month anniversary. We won't be together physically, but both of us are always together in spirit. And it's so strange how I couldn't even have dreamt of any of this if I wanted too back before!
So now I'm waiting the 8 weeks and 6 days until I see my boyfriend again in February. We will be spending our 8 month anniversary and Valentines Day together, will be taking a one week holiday to New Zealand and he'll be staying for a month :).
After he returns back to The States in March, we'll be getting ready for me to head over there for a visit in June so we can spend our 1 year anniversary together!
I'll also be staying for a month and returning home in July.
Unfortunately, there will be a huge gap of 5 months when we won't see each other, but Rj will be coming back in December '08 to celebrate an Aussie Christmas with my family and myself. Hopefully, we are looking at getting him an Australian visa until we are married, and then we'll both be making the move back to The States where I can become a temporary US citizen.
Like i said, a lot has happened -- and i wouldn't change any of it for the world.


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Apr 17th, at 2:07pm 07 ]
[ mood | sick ]

well well it's PAY DAY! 
No $$ yet so far but should be coming...

My beautiful boyfriend is in Sydney and won't be home til this afternoon/tomorrow -- blah. I haven't seen him since he left my house Sunday morning but i got a txt earlier :)

"Hey babe. I got ya msg I miss u so much. I have so much 2 tell u but mostly I miss n love u. I have been thinking about u every waking moment."
Mmmmmm. Love the lovely boyfriend and SMS msgs!

Have REALLY left dress-up engagement part to last minute -- I need:

A dress


All i have is accessories -- and thats only because I'm an 80's baby and Mum had some stuff too.
But yes, I need an 80's black dress to wear for Jaz's engagement... all i've found so far is a $100 Toille dress from work -- really don't want to resort to paying that much.
I think I'll have to hit up Vinnies as it's even to late to buy online.

Oooohhh, or I could convince my lovely boyfriend to come to Sydney with me so I can check out Broadway Betty and Grandma takes a Trip... :)

(already have 3 packets of rubber bangles lol!!!)

will keep you posted when i FINALLY get my outfit together.....


Cos I'm Fabolous.. [Monday
Aug 28th, at 9:37pm 06 ]
[ mood | naughty ]

I had the best weekend EVER i swear...

Friday I actually missed college (oops) as I was late gettin ready and then didn't make it to the train. I met my cuz in Glebe at 12.30 and had Thai On Wok. Shit, that place is awesome - I've never had Green Curry so yummylicious :)
Then I headed into the city to waste some time at Market City <3 before I headed off to George St. cinemas to see The Lake House - awesome movie even if it was a lil hard to follow.
After that I hopped a train to Redfern to meet the cuz and do our thing. I met her bf who is lovely and we had taco's (i was in heaven i swear...) and vodka mixers for dinner ... wooo hooooo =D
Lol we was damn tipsy before we even MADE it to the club ... we headed to Club DCM on Oxford St. and started drinkin more as soon as we got in of course.. 


Anyhoo, DCM is an awesome club, was minding my own and shakin my shiet (and ended up on a few stages & tables with a fanclub but shhh) and ended up meetin a really nice boy (oooo) who is also EXTREMELY gorgeous and has been callin me a few times since friday ;)
Actually, single is so awesome - i'm gettin my confidence back (i actually hit on the hot boy at DCM)...
it was just the best night.
And as soon as I find out what site the club puts pics up on I'll post em all up ... lol we had a few taken and i think they were a bit funny and drunken.


My babies are comin to Sydney...!!!

saturday 09.02.06 biatch!

i know, i really don't look like a Ying Yang fan but i'm crazzyyyyyyy as all hell..!
And I have some kind of weird obsession with durrttyy lyrics and nasty boys...

I'm tellin u, theres somethin sexy about em and I'm so effin meeting the both of u on Saturday..



Aug 24th, at 10:44am 06 ]
[ mood | busy ]

So, life has been pretty good lately. Keeping yourself busy is the key right? 

Am still so excited for tomorrow as I'm going out with my cousin for a night on the town :) just looking forward to getting back into party mode and feeling what single is all about u know?

ahhh i have my PR assignment due tomorrow - i swear tomorrow's class is going to be so boring. Personal Management Skills - pass. but i have to do it u know.

I'm goin to the movies tomorrow after class to waste time til I meet up with my cuz - can some explain why there's so many shit-house movies out at the moment..? Sooo gay. Maybe I should see Miami Vice to perve on Jamie Foxx hahaha =D


Aug 21st, at 10:59pm 06 ]
[ mood | confused ]

So life has been a lil confusing lately.
I was sick all last week with a viral infection and was off work/college etc. 

I went to see Bruce on Tuesday for lunch despite my illness and I thought everything was great - he said he wanted us to be together, I'm the one for him, he misses me etc etc. 

Didn't really do much Wednesday/Thursday except call in sick for work then went to the Beachcomber on Friday. Nothing out of the ordinary all weekend you know - just a normal life right.

Went to Clovez yesterday afternoon after work and we were just hangin out, talkin etc when I get a phone call from Bruce at around 4.30.

He starts shit, and keeps referring to "if someone asks me out I shouldn't say no" like wtf is that supposed to mean? Cut a very long story short we broke up.

Yes I am serious, he broke up with me. His excuses were that we weren't the same anymore, our relationship wasn't going anywhere - random bullshit that doesn't make any sense.

To tell you the truth, I'm dealing pretty well - i cried yesterday when it all happened but not since then. And technically, we were still actually on a break from when we first broke up the other week but whatever.

I'm not going to say I don't love him because I do, and I can't say that I'm ready for a new relationship because I'm not but I'm definately in the healing process.

He's still msging me though. like why? 

I got a txt at 2.30pm saying "hey hw r ya 2day?" i wrote back you know - i'm fine how are you. he writes back "i'm gud just doin sme uni work and stuff just wantd 2 say watup. hve a gd day."  i didn't write back.

then tonight i was online for a lil while, left my comp at about 7.30 (to watch aus idol lol) and came back at about 8.30 and shut everything off and went back downstairs.

i noticed that Bruce was online but I jst ignored it and went and left my phone up here as well. I came back up here at 10.30 and noticed he sent me a msg at 8.30 sayin "why did u go offline babe i wanted 2 chat 2 u."

what the hell is wrong with him..?

and he NEVER understands why I tell him constantly that he confuses me - um hello?

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I'm A Nice Girl.. [Monday
Aug 14th, at 4:39pm 06 ]
[ mood | exhausted ]

To every girl that

dresses cute not skanky.

To every girl who

wants to be called beautiful not hot.

To every girl that will spend her whole day

looking for the perfect present for you.

To every girl who gets her heart

broken because he chose that bitch instead.

To every girl that would die

to have a decent boyfriend.

To every girl who would just like once

to be treated like a princess.

To every girl that cries at night

because of another heartbreak.

To every girl that wont get down on her knees

and open her mouth just to get a boyfriend.

To every girl that

just wants to hold hands.

To every girl that

kisses him with meaning.

To every girl who

just wishes he cared more.

To every girl who would just once want a guy to give

their jacket up when they are cold.

To every girl who

just wants him to call.

To every girl who lies

awake at night thinking about him.

To every girl that

just wants to cuddle.

To every girl that

just wants to sleep with him without having sex.

To every girl that is SCARED to put her heart

out there again because she has been HURT

tooo many times or so badly.

To every girl who shows how much

she cares and gets nothing back.

To every girl that thought

maybe this one could be the one.

To every girl that

believes in her dreams.

To every girl that would do anything

so she could achieve those dreams.

To every girl that laughs at stupid stuff

when she actually doesnt think it is funny.

To every girl who is just looking for that one

and only and is having a rough time along the way.

To every girl that has been cheated on

because shes not a slut who gives it up to any guy.

To every girl that doesnt want a guy who

just plays with her emotions but actually cares

about how she feels.

To every girl who wants

words backed up with actions.

To every girl that fell for all the lies

only to find themselves alone in the end.

To every girl that gave her heart away

to have it shoved back in her face.

To every girl that loves God more

than anything in the world.

*If you are a nice girl repost this as: "To every girl."

*If you are a guy that thinks every girl should try to think about even a few of these things repost it as "I am looking for this girl."

*If your a guy thats taken write "I have this girl"


Aug 14th, at 4:04pm 06 ]
[ mood | sick ]

omg life is so difficult at the moment - i know i know it seems like there's always something wrong with me - but i just never have enough time for ANYTHING.

this is my lovely schedule for this week.

sunday. work + movies
monday. work

tuesday. lunch date in newcastle + PR assignment
wednesday. work
thursday. work
friday. college
saturday. work

it just sucks, it's not making it any better cos i'm sick as well so i'm really lethargic.
plus, i need this PR assignment finished for this week and it's pretty supersized.

i just have no time for myself or my friends either and i really hate it. i've promised so many friends/family members that i'll come down and visit them, see them for their birthday, hang out more etc and i just can't.

And everyone says i'm so lucky cos of my job and my college - ha yea whatever.


Aug 10th, at 3:13pm 06 ]
[ mood | bored ]

hello fair players and playettes.
i'm in a bit of a weird mood today - since i'm trying not to think of ANYTHING to do with Bruce or our relationship, i've been wasting time and thinking about shit that doesn't matter.

i spoke to Bruce last night online...

yesterday morning around 11.15 he sent me a msg wishing me a good day and i didn't write back. he also sent me an email at 12. i didn't write back to that either. but when i saw him online -around 9pm- i told him i got the email and that it meant something to me.
i sent him a good morning msg this morning and he's playing at my game now too.
that's what we do - not reply straight away and the one who sent the msg doesn't contact them until they get one back. and i'm not failing this test either dammit! i can be cold for days ... unless he calls me and then i'll bust out crying.
i`m so confused i wish i could have some bloody straight answers.

what's everyone doin tonight? i have dinner with Clovez ... shall be exciting. we never go out no more so it should be good times.

sigh - i have an assignment for my Selling and Customer Relations class due tomorrow. Have i started? why would i have honestly.
i hate going to college in winter - it's sooo cold and i have to wake up so early.
what's everyone doin tomorrow? wanna meet up?

05.45 - wake up
07.17 - train
09.14 - get to central
09.25 - starbucks
09.45 - bus 
10.00 - class
12.30 - lunch

I'm free after 12.30! =)
plus i need some fun - between relationships, work and college my life is just stupid.

and i have a mad chocolate craving..

i have public relations and publicity class tomorrow - how very samantha jones of me :)

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Aww :) [Tuesday
Jul 25th, at 9:27pm 06 ]
[ mood | silly ]

Look what I stumbled upon yesterday...

Real Kidz - Biracial DollsReal Kidz - Biracial Dolls

Yes, Biracial Dolls!!

they're so cute i want them ALL..! =D


Venting... [Tuesday
Jul 25th, at 10:29am 06 ]
[ mood | exhausted ]

- List 10 things you want to say to people but know you never will.
- Don't say who they are.
- Disable comments.
- Never discuss it again.

1. I wish that you would have more common sense when it comes to relationships, friendships and life in general.

2. You are not a player ... stop trying to tell me you are and i hope you get chlamydia.

3. I hate how negative you are. Stop whinging and do something about your life if it's so bad.

4. I love you and I hope you made the right decision moving so far away from us all.

5. I wish I could spend more time with you and I really miss you when we're apart.

6. You aren't the only person in my life. I have friends and a boyfriend - deal with it.

7. I hate it when you smoke and how you act around your friends.

8. If I can't look after my own self and my money issues that's my own problem.

9. I hate how much you lied to me. we were supposed to be friends right? you really are nothing in my life now.

10. I hate how much money you spend in one night of going out. Stop lending money to people and stop drinking so much.

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